what kind decision i had made! i am going to china when spm is around the conner....OMG! damn stress man!i worring tat when i go there and my heart is being at kasturi tuition centre! i really really sad to miss mr kurma ,miss lynn,mr khoo,cikgu saad and cikgu zaidi classes....it have the fears in my heart,it like a boom is going to happen....the feeling is so hard to take it..i dont know why spm examination effect me so deeply.haiz...my parents are forcing me to go..then i have no choice lo... hope god bless me! now i feel so damn tension! i just only can do is think positive and take it easy .....sad....

"if you enter this world knowing you are loved,and you leave this world knowing that the same,then everything that happens in between can be dealt with."and i am happy to be alive and i am happy to be who i am.i never look at what i've lost and i am always look at what i've got!

what the hell happen in my life?this few days a lot of bad things happened...Accually today i decided not to go school and i told my mom i dont want go to school because i want study at home.after i telling her,she straight aways scolded me and said i will be the bad student in school.what the hell she is talking man!the worse is my dad said if like that not need go to school and after your from5 go for work and you no need go for your further study so that we can save money...when he spoke i heart was broke..i cant believe my parents say that kind of thing...they know i decided to study in overseas and they purposely said that to hurt me..how come they never think what happen to their children and try to understand their feeling 1...i get so sick to face them...i treat my teachers and my friends very good because i just want to send my caring and love to someone else because i dont have the oppotunity to do so in my family...they dont need my love and caring at all! thursday i am scolded by my account teacher!shit man!!!i damn sad and damn angry man!!!he said i am stupid because of not doing well in account...he said plz..read newspaper la..dont know any things and you without knowlage u cant not go far! and he said i will always remain in the childish mind..and i just ask myself am i? i do read TIME and i know what is happen to the world and is zit any things realated to account? i am trying to figure out why he said so....and am i stupid?because of doing bad in account.after he saying that,i just think can i take any bussiness subjects in my college?i think so because i am very poor in account..haiz..so FAN...this fews day really not in good mood and my life become dull...when i feel not happy i will play my violin and get my mood back...this few days classical always stay with me and i am not alone...

mom.....why this days u always scold me?i never done anythings wrong...this few day i am so unhappy! i cannot do this and cannot do that! mom..i am already 18 years old what for u always scold me and make me so uncomfortable.yup!you dont want dady give me money but plz..atleast dont over do la..u want my wallet become empty is zit? and no money to eat and go tuition then u will be happy...is zit what you are planing to do now?i know i spend a lot of money in buying stroy books but reading is a good habit,how come u againts it? i just cant understand what u are thinking! other than that,plz...stop comparing me with man yi.she is a very smart person and always get straight A1 in exam but doesn't mean i will same as her. I dont care what u said i just do my best and do u know every single time u talk about it, how is the feeling ar!is so hurt!u always think that your children never be good compare to others. i already so tired to face you!
i hope the time can run faster.i want to be independent, i dont want to be a little girl any more! i want to be like miss lynn. she is wonderful teacher and also my role model and i want to be like her next time...she is a very powerful human being that i ever met...i love her man!!!

michael jackson!!!

michael jackson!!!I love U and miss u so much!!! I miss your music,dance and your speech!besides that,your speech are so touch....you are so care about children life!because when you are 5 years old already have to face million of people!!so that you dont have childhood life! because of this, you help a lot of children from being suffering because you dont want them have a same life as you!!!you do a lot of charity works to help children this what i agree u so much!!! I am still supporting you even though u already left this world! i am so pity about your life! and i am happy for you because now you already stop suffering from illness and hardlife!MICHAEL JACKSON,U WILL ALWAYS IN MY HEART,I LOVE YOU!